feelings as OW seems to be on way out

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Peace, At this time I am not interested in reconciling w/X. I have continued to post here because it is following the story through. This is a rather predictable ending that probably would have happened with or without the added illness.

I have to say that on the whole, I am not really interested in being friends w/X, either. I would help him because he is my D's dad and I have some gentle thoughts of him. But I don't have romantic thoughts any more.

Things have gone well with New Guy but I think I am kind of scared to get deeply involved. Not because of him, but because in general, a new relationship is rather intimidating.....