I really feel for you trying to navigate through this GW. All I can suggest is to listen to your gut about what YOU need. Try to focus on yourself. Unhealthy focus on your W derails you from following your direction.

(((hugs)))

me: 42 | STBXH: 41 | T: 18 | M: 10 | separation: Jan 3, 2010 | they deserve better: S7 & D4
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.: first breathe, then heal, then start LIVING :.