Ahh, here i am less than 24 hours from my last post, and guess what! I feel responsible for how my H feels! Again!
This is so annoying. At least I see myself doing it this time.
Have dinner with D & H tonight to break up her 1st 3-day daddy marathon. Coincidentally got an emailed $30 gift certificate to Benihana's for their b-day club. Thought it might be fun, and we hadn't decided what to do for dinner, so I asked H what he thought.
His original idea was McDonnald's, but he said sure. Then he starts going on about what a hard day D has had. I ask if he is sure, because I don't want to make this a difficult night, McD's if ok, really. We go back and forth, just getting frustrated with each other. D starts fussing, H is getting short with both of us, we hang up so he can untangle D from the computer cords.
I pace for a bit and decide to call H back. Tell him really, lets do McD's because I just want tonight to be easy, not a big production. He says (sounding much calmer) no, Benihana's will be fine. We will meet at 6.
I have been repeating my new mantra ever since:
I am not responsible for my H’s thoughts, feelings, or actions.
I am not responsible for my H’s thoughts, feelings, or actions.
I am not responsible for my H’s thoughts, feelings, or actions.
Anyway, I’m gonna’ DB, act as if, and all that. I am going to do my best to make tonight to be fun and easy. I just want to be with my girl and have fun.
