Hey, Mish...no, it isn't reading that you are down in the dumps, but your pessimistic outlook regarding Gabe is still firmly entrenched. I know that you feel hope is dangerous right now - I so get that. Even if he has given you some signs to feel it. Maybe even because of those signs...
To counteract that, you can look again to your self-esteem issues that you have brought up in the past. I get the feeling that you just haven't been paying much attention to you lately (with great reason). Hope you take time to get back to knowing and loving the wonderful "you" that you are. Then, what Gabe does or doesn't do won't be eating at you.
