Sorry all my post didn't go through. So here goes again. I am a 36 year old white male my wife is a 35 year old white female we have been married for 12 years together for 13 we have two children a 11 years old biological son and a 15 year old stepson she has from a previous marriage. Our marriage has been rocky to say the least with multiple arguments mostly stemming from an internet chat room addiction i developed early in our marriage.Approximately two years into our marriage i engaged in a short lived physical affair and out of guilt ended it and told my w everything about it. We cried together and she said she loved me so much. Our marriage continued on the rocky patch concerning what she says to be caused by my jealous and controlling behavior. Approximately two years ago i engaged in a three year ea and pa with a married woman. My wife found out about it through the ow husband. We cried together again and this time separated for approximately two months at which time i entered into counseling to try and figure out why i pursued the other woman. We reconciled and spent the next two years together better than ever, though she still complained of my jealous and controlling behavior. After a huge fight about he going to a bachlorette party and her behavior at a wedding reception as a result we separated for a second time. I am currently in counseling again for my behavior cause i don't want to be like this to her and want to save my marriage and make it stronger. While separated i have done everything i shouldn't have begging pleading, hundreds of text messages a day and continuing my accusatory behavior towards her even though she says there is no one else and she is sick of me asking that question every week. She has since stopped responding to my text messages and says she has never loved me like a wife should love her husband, that she has no feelings for me and that she stopped caring a long time ago. She also says that if you love someone you always do and it never goes away. Recently she said that our marriage had been destroyed and that if id been paying attention over the years i would have known that. I told her we can fix it and she says its to late to repair our marriage and that i will never understand her feelings. I would appreciate any input as to what steps i make take to fix my marriage or is it even possible
