Positively moving forward

[awest1217]

Talk to the paralegal yesterday and got my questions answered. We are adding a few things like how H needs to get off my car insurance, and that H must have his items out of the house 30 days after the D is final, etc. Oh and I think I forgot to put that when I got the info from the L it contained the items from H that she wanted with a letter dated November 16. H made it seem like the subpeona was not needed, but he didn't send the papers until probably the 17th which is when the subpeona was sent out so he didn't send them in October like he made it seem. I am really getting mad at him and I am having a hard time being civil because now he is hurting me financially as well as emotionally.

I asked H about the registration and he says he never got it, but got online to look at how much it cost. He said something about me paying him, but I said I will take care of it myself. With his lateness on teh car insurance twice and his lateness getting the paperwork to the L, I am sure he wouldn't pay on time which would hurt me more. I believe from last year I can just pay for my car, and that is it. He then can pay his. He has so much money...I don't understand why he has a problem. He is netting $1420 a month after paying me child support and his only real bill is a $200 college loan and maybe $300 in food and gas. Where is the other $1100 going? Why is he always late or always worried about money? I am living paycheck to paycheck...

I need to call the dealer again. I called last week Friday and they said they would get back to me in 45 minutes. It now has been 4 days. My check engine light is now on 80% of the time and my car stalls at least twice every other day. GM said the parts have been sent to the dealer and I have to call them now, but I must wait for the letter or I have to pay out of pocket. That is rediculous. I may never get the letter because the car is first in H's name and who knows what is going on with his mail since we never got the registration renewal paperwork and who knows if his mail is still going to his parent's since he isn't living there anymore.

S cried for a long time about not wanting to go to school. He felt a little warm when I dropped him off at my mom's (early meetings) and so I am thinking I will have to take a day off tomorrow.

I need to get some info for the L that I forgot to do so H can sign the paperwork giving me the house.

The city is fixing the sewer right in front of my house so I am not allowed to park at my house and must park down the street with possible snow the next two days so instead of only taking a week...it will probably take longer....

I had a meeting this morning about book adoption and my principal put me in a bad mood talking about how teachers aren't doing the right thing by the students and we need to do better and we need to narrow the standards and only teach what is important (instead of teaching everything like the state says) and how we should be looking online for hours to get materials and do everything online...

One positive. Over Thanksgiving I messaged my BIL that likes me. We got close when H was MIA and BIL was awesome stepping up to hang with S. BIL also knows everything H did to me because he is friends with a lot of the girls H had EA's with while dating (the ongoing OW1 who is 5 years younger than us is one BIL was good friends with). Anyway it was good. He had said how he was always mad lately on FB and I said how it was because we hadn't hung out in a long time...lol. He posted that he did miss hanging out every Friday night. (I would always talk to him about work and stuff that he hates, but has to say nice things about because FIL got him the job and works with him and he still lives at home, etc.) I messaged him on Thanksgiving saying thank you for everything he did the past year like letting me use his laptop when H took ours, stepping up to hang with S when H was MIA, talking with me and just making me feel like things might be normal again, etc. I said he was a great uncle and BIL. He responded back how he missed having me at Thanksgiving (must not have been the one planned with S) and he misses hanging out, and welcome. He also didn't know S had strep, which was weird. It was nice to reconnect with him and he plans one coming over sometime around Christmas.

Otherwise as you can tell, I am very overwhelmed. I have no one to talk to about any of this stuff. No one has the time to listen and everyone just keeps saying how I am better off and I will find someone new and better soon. I don't know. I just feel hurt and stuck. On top of that, my stomach is messed up and I only ate one meal yesterday...