Thank you everyone for your encouraging words and advice. I had my first telephone consult and it opened my eyes a little bit as to what I may or may not have contributed to this demise and us living apart. I have some internal trust and self esteem issues I need to work on right now. I cant wait for the book to arrive. I am only going to put the best me infront of him and will stop pleading. Weird he sometimes calls me to ask about the babies like he did when we were together --- but we make small talk. I want to be his friend but coach thinks for my cooling off period I should just stick to talks about the kids and the finances . I do want something better and I hope its with him - we cant go back to the way our marriage was.
