So happy to hear that Ry is doing so much better! And good for you for letting the doctors know what is and is not acceptable for his discharge! You are an amazing mom. I think you earned the right to cry. I think it's normal after everything you've been through to have a little break down when you have the time. I think that is what we do as parents when our kids are in crisis....keep strong, keep going, then when we get a moment to breathe the emotions can erupt!
"You can't stop the waves, but you can learn to surf." Jon Kabat-Zinn