Twink, It's understandable if you have a little breakdown...you just lost your mother. It's okay to feel the pain and cry or be sad. You can't always put on the happy and strong face....you are only human.
Please take care of yourself.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
