We have not talked with family. They have no idea. Our best friend who is also his doctor called last night to check on the medication(lexapro for depression) he switched to last week. My husband said he didn't think it was working and was willing to try something new and go in for bloodwork. This friend is a very close couple friend of ours so I was very hopeful he was willing to talk with him. The friend also suggessted they go out Wendsday and my husband was all for it.
Last night Jason was again talking about our Christmas plans and the party this weekend with no prompts from me. I know I am grasping at straws but it is all I can do at this point. Thank you so much for responding to my posts. It feels good knowing I have someone to listen and give me some perspective smile I just spend my days stressing about what he is thinking. It is really wearing me down. We have a counceling session Wednesday but I really don't think they are very helpful. My husband has said as much but has not mentioned stopping so I guess thats good?

Thanks for letting me ramble.