Thank you Sandi, you have such a gift for giving such common sense advice. You are really able to read a situation well. You're right,I need to accept that this pain won't go away for awhile. I think I am looking for a solution to that, as much as I am hoping to that my relationship could be fixed. There is no quick fix. The pain is scary right now, my future is scary right now. And it does hurt so much. I feel like all the joy has been sucked out of my life. I have never understood what people meant when they said that they can't take the pain anymore until I felt pain like this.
You're right about placing my focus on my son. Learning to change what I can and accept what I can't. I have started to say the Serenity Prayer, hoping to gain strength in this area.
Thank you for sharing your insights, sometimes the words I read are just enough to help me face another day of this.
