Hope for zen, I thought of a quote I just read yesterday when I read your post above about the bulb metaphor and thought you might like it:
"And the day came when the risk it took to remain tightly closed in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to bloom." --Anais Nin
Glad to hear that you are in a place of love rather than anger and best of luck to you; we are very much in the same place right now.
M45 Bomb 6/09; EA 6/10; Divorced 1/11 Proud single mom of 7 little feline girls and one little feline boy "Fall down 53 times. Get up 54." -- Zen saying
