I have stopped talking about the R. I dont ask him where he is going what time he will be back etc. When he is on the phone i do not ask him who it is. When I talk about the seperation it is completely logistical i.e. the kids need care on xyz days etc. I have started going out, bought some new clothes and had my hair done. It has made me feel loads better to do this.
He told his close friend that he is unhappy but unsure why. he is blaming our finanical situation on me yet in the last 10 years of marriage he has had 4 motorcyles. The only thing i ever wanted was a vacation and never got that.
Being pregnant is also causing some stress. When i was expecting with the others he was very much involved. He has shown very little interest in this baby.
I am so overwelmed with sadness. I feel like i cant get through this. I have tried to stop crying in front of him and for the most part have done a good job. When we have talked about the R he just says he is not sure what is going to happen to which i reply that i dont know what will happen either. He says it is not another women and is willing to wait until i deliver to discuss both of us seeing other people. I feel that if we are at the point of seeing other people then isnt divorce inevitable?
I feel so alone and sad....I try to make it through the day for my children but it is very difficult. Thank you for your support.
