lotus, that is the confusion for me. Our lives are very happy. We get along great. We have date night every week, put each others needs first constantly and I couldn't imagine a better family life. The passion and desire is gone for her.
After we had our talk about how D needs to look last night I felt like I did right before she came back. I am positive, extremely happy and look at this as a new opportunity for me. I don't really want this for my family and kids, but you play the cards your dealt. When she sees this she completely changes her tune she follows me around, asks me why I am so funkydory about everything, says she would do anything to make this work?
I just let it all slide and tell her "you know what, you say that you love me so much, that you would do anything to make this work, but the truth is you won't attend 1 weekend with me and you won't quit your job".... so I watch your actions and I am coninuing on my path until your actions give me any reason not too.
there is no hate between us. there is an understanding. and I feel completely free of guilt that I did everything I could to make this right. MY actions backed up everthing that I ever said. Right now, I refuse to get sucked back into something that I know isn't right.
