It'a All About Me

[Sanderika]

Hi Cas,

I can't thank you enough for the support you give to me.

I am going to apologize in advance for venting and rambling.

This whole weekend, while I have GAL like crazy, I have been down right depressed about my situation.

Things aren't as they should be!! D@mn It!!

Wednesday was my last day at work. I did quit the job for the reasons I said about an abusive boss. H was very supportive and actually had a hand at convincing me to give up the job. He actually called me twice a week to ask how I was getting along with the big a-hole. He told me to just quit, stating that I didn't deserve to be treated the way this guy treated me.

Son and I actually experienced a nice and very friendly H for over a month now. He has spent days here doing things like putting up firewood for us. He had spent four weekends in a row (til this one), either all of it or at least half of it, with son.

Last weekend I had a part on my truck break and H took charge of it and fixed it for me. I was in shock over that one!! In fact he was really nice to me right up until Monday night this week.
Then it's like a switch went off and he turned away and has been actually rude and cold. I assume OW saw my truck in my shop last weekend and gave H a ration of cr@p like he's never had.

While it really bothers me, I realize H is a mess. I am not going to get caught up in this drama. I assume it has more to do with the OW than anything son or I have done. I also wondered if it bothers him that we are nice to him after all he has done.

What is it that allowed me to stop and wonder if he was having second thoughts about us? How come just because he's nice to us, I assume he is?

My H is currently behaving just like yours. I am sick of it.

I cannot let H's behavior towards me continue to suck me in.

How do I stop? How do I shut off my emotions and feelings for this man? What is it that I can't.

Should I completely shut off any gestures of friendship?

I am very confused.

Have you checked out a new thread by WCW? She and her H are beginning piecing and reconciling after 7 years of this MLC stuff. Another new, interesting thread is by BeingMe, she has given up after piecing for about 4 years now.

My problem....I still can't believe I didn't get my marriage back. I still want to reconcile because I still love him and my family.

See how confused I am....

Thank you,

Sanderika