Still Moving Forward

[BeingMe]

Thanks WCW. You are right ... I do want answers, but perhaps I will never have them. I will try to stop pushing. I have let go of the rope, again again again and again. I am trying very hard to just be .... be happy, be at peace, be loving, be satisfied, be content with my life. If he goes ahead with the S, then so be it. I will worry about that when the bridge appears, and I have to cross it.

It's so hard to do this when he is thousands of miles away. But, even at home, I still don't know what he's thinking, or feeling. The ML was just a shock for me because of how long since we last did it. I don't know why now, or even if it will happen again. I will let go of that too, unless I decide to try and woo him back.