Hi friends!!!
Things are the same... Moving slow (too slow for my tast) but its good.
Gr8! How was your date???!!! We went to dinner had a great time, nothing more really. Like I said. Really slow. H still didn't move back home, and partially my doing. I don't want him back simply bc of the baby. I need a hubby, not a nanny!!! LR, thanks for checking in! I'm happy to be here... Just want to move a little faster! Lol.

We started MC several weeks okay... Great one! And I looked at her library and was so happy to see DR by MWD sitting on her shelf! Well, we each had separate sesions and meet again as a couple in two weeks... H is a shy, insecure boy. He wasn't always, but he is now. I get scared... A lot. And I push away. I can't help it.

We had a wonderful thanksgiving with my family, and the little one!!! Wow, if I only knew how happy he wwouldve made me, I probably wouldve been ok when H left! Not really tho.

Piano, NM, Gatsby... Miss you girls! I agree with your analogy P. I miss all of our chats. I am checking in on my phone but want to see what's going on with all of you too. How are the babies!!!! The boy is 4 1/2 months and is so so so cute!!! Having the best time!

Sorry I'm not on here as much as I'd like to... Part of me is so busy with just life and the other part has a hard time looking back and remembering what I went through, and all of you too. New years day is one year that H moved out... And he dropped the bomb days before christmas, and I can't help but think of all of that every day.

Forgiving is easy... Forgetting is nearly impossible for me... Just need to get past it all. I need to start realizing that I deserve to be happy! MC suggested a new boy for me "Guilt is the teacher, love is the answer" just ordered it from barnesandnoble.com. Like I have time to read! But I will...

Miss you all so much!!!

Peicing... Not easy. Long lonely boring road. But I want to work things out and H does too. We just have a lot to go over in MC. I am not sure H is fully aware of the impact his leaving had on me. Well, that's all for now. Huge hugs to all of you.

Please continue to send positive vibes my way... And I'll do the same in return!