Cadet and Seekinganswers, Thanks for the support. This site is great. I am going to continue to work on myself today by doing something for someone else. A buddy of mine who has really supported me through all of this has to babysit his daughter today while his wife has to work. Their daughter is under a year old and they don't like to bring her into big crowds right now. This is going to cause my friend to have to miss a big game party the rest of our friends are throwing today. So, instead of letting him sit alone, I am going to skip the big party, pick up some steaks and go hang out with him and his daughter to say "thanks" for the support. Yes, I will miss the big party, but I it will be worth it. He is a good friend and sometimes giving back to someone else is the greatest gift.
As for the Christmas decorations, you guys are right. I am going to put every decoration I can find on the outside of my house starting next weekend. At some point, I will bet she will drive by just to see what will happen this year. Won't she be surprised to see our house bright as ever. I love her so much and I would like to think she is just confused right now. But, I can't control her. I can, however, control me. With some help from my counselor, this forum and my family, I will do my best to enjoy the holidays none the less. I thank you from the bottom of my heart for the support. Please keep in touch!
Fellonblackdays
Me: 39 W: 36 T: 15 yrs M: 9 yrs S: 09/10
So you can get on with your search, baby And I can get on with mine And maybe someday we will find, That it wasn't really wasted time...
