I planned ahead and made sure I had something to do. I volunteered at a church here in town that puts on a meal for anyone who wants to come... there were people from all walks of life... some were poor in money, others poor in family. I was very thankful to be able to serve at such a wonderful event. and since I felt so good about that I was able to stop by at a couple of the places I had been invited to. I didn't stay long at either place, but I was able to enjoy being with other families for a short time and then I met a friend for a movie.
I survived it
Yesterday I got a massage and it was wonderful. When done, the massage therapist said "sweetie, I don't know what's going on in your life, but there is some really bad stuff isn't there?". She could tell that just from touching me? Kind of blew my mind!
Our court date is rescheduled for Dec 15th... My house is on the market, and I have faith when the time comes that the good Lord will show me where the boys and I should live... our land is up for sale... H and I have pretty much come to agreement on most financial things... this divorce train is moving along.
I know this will sound odd but in some ways I am grateful for this opportunity to grow and become the person I am supposed to be. I am no longer the doormat in a marriage of two damaged people. I will most likely forever mourn the loss of the family I imagined, but life will go on... and I pray I am strong enough to make the most of what's next.
Me 54 DS19 and DS17 Married 06/1989 Divorced 01/2011
