Man, been an eventful past few days. Thanksgiving came and went, you'd never guess there were problems. She talked that night about us going and hitting some black friday sales. So that morning we got up, left the kids at Grandma's and hit the sales. Spent most of the day shopping. We had a lot of fun, lots of friendly banter, cutting up, etc...
But about half way through the day she blindsides me with, "So do you think you'll get remarried?" (When I first heard the ILYBNILWY about a month ago, during my begging/pleaded stage, I was being rather emotional and blurted out that i doubted i'd ever marry again, that I was probably going to be single the rest of my life.) Now, i've come more to my senses since then and it is something i've thought about. But I was racing through my head "what do i say!??!!?!?". So I said the truth, that "yeah, I would probably get married again. But not til I was finished working on me." She was smiling and replied with "REALLY?!?! What changed from 'I'll be along and single'?" I said, "Life's too short, I enjoy being married & want to share my life with someone..." Later as we were buying some supplies (soap, etc...) she'd jest "Oh, you buying that for your new girlfriend?" I decided to play along b/c she seemed to be having fun with it... I replied, "Oh yeah, I got a hot date later, want to smell good" She laughed, "oh yeah, what's her name?" I said "uhhh... Tammy", she said "OMG you're not allowed to date anyone named Tammy".... I have no idea if this type of conversation is healthy but she seemed to be enjoying it so I kept at it despite how it made me feel inside (icky). I never initiated any of this type of conversation. Anyone out there that can make any sense of this?
Also, I was finally able to dispell most of the notion that she thought I found her unattractive. Best thing was it happened so naturally and truthfully I think she believed me. We were shopping in the Bra/panty section of one of the stores and well... my hormones were racing at picturing her in some of this stuff and I said, "Umm, Im just gonna go over there for a little bit...." She looked at me oddly and said "Why?" and I said, "Because this stuff is driving me crazy" Anyways, that was the door that opened for me to explain that when she wore some the black lacey stuff, that it drove me nuts. She seemed very pleased by this and teased me throughout the day about it.
Well, that's all for now. Kids need their daddy :-)
Me 36 W 35 Children S7 / D6 Married 11 years. ILYBNILWY Oct 29,2010 2 Dogs :-D