New day Looked for AGES for something to buy myself, but for some reason, everyone and their aunt decided to take friday afternoon off, and go XMAS shopping at our local mall! It was chaos! Eventually ended up just walking and perusing, but the time to myself felt like a real treat anyway - what I needed
Came home and put on my new little bikini I bought a while ago, and lay in the sun for a while to get some colour Starting to get a nice little weeny tan going
I txted H about a payment that needed to be made (he still has full control over any online payments), short and to the point. He txts back saying he's back from camping(like i needed to know that, the less i know the better I feel, I'm finding), and that he would do the transfer, and asked how S is doing.
I said hes fine. Has verbal diarrhea. He responds -
'Bless him Will fetch him in the morning to take him out Not going overseas next week, cancelled it, so will be resuming normal routine next week '
So this tells me that he DID cancel the overseas trip to spend more time with S(has hardly seen him in the past couple weeks).
He is expecting to return to the usual bath time routine - him rocking up at bathtime (Just like I said hey?)
He was still busy with OW last night, so no good night calls or visits for S.
It really ticks me off that he is off in his own little universe for 3 days, and only a txt from me will prompt him to ask how S is. And it feels almost asif he does it cause he thinks it would seem wrong NOT to ask. Otherwise he would have txted and asked himself long ago...No?
Anyway, feel VERY different today. Feel like a line has been crossed, and its NOT ok. I feel .....betrayed. Off.
The roses are falling off these glasses at a RAPID rate, and I'm almost pleased to report, that I can see VERY clearly at the moment
Detachment? Mmmmmm, feels like it
Last night the betrayel of this whole week hit me hard, and I stuffed myself with icecream(I dont even like ice cream), pasta (I love pasta), Wine , biscuits, and basically anything in the kitchen that didnt move
Comfort eating. I havnt done that since high school. And as soon as I get to this point , I KNOW...I've been pushed TOO FAR, in something, and I have to take steps to remove myself.
I like my new roseless glasses at the moment
Going to go check out a new 'Chinatown' thats opened today a few mins away. Also going to try detox my poor body from last nights horrible food attack. Sorry body
Will also try brave the XMAS crowd again at the mall, need to find a new 'unsexy' costume(bathing suit) for the gym...
Looked for AGES for something to buy myself, but for some reason, everyone and their aunt decided to take friday afternoon off, and go XMAS shopping at our local mall! It was chaos! Eventually ended up just walking and perusing, but the time to myself felt like a real treat anyway - what I needed 
