Well I definitely f'ed up dropping the rope tonight. Not a good idea having wh pick you up from the airport. Being picked up from the airport was too nostalgic as it is, and a 3 hour flight with a crying and screaming 2 year old (mine) did not have me in the best frame of mind. And it doesn't help that when he meets me at the airport, he changes the plan on me that he was supposed to have our son tonight. I guess those are the excuses that I will offer myself, but the bottom line is I f'ed up. Why when you know your about to screw everything up with a confrontation, and you know from experience you will feel worse later for having had a confrontation, is there a tiny voice that tells you -"but this might actually make you feel better.. it might actually come out positively this time." Why??????????
