Hope it's not too late

[Truegritter]

I understand, in hindsight, how I pushed her away

We can't do anything about the past so start to try to forgive yourself there.

This is not a sprint.

Changes take time and it will take time before she believes these changes and for them to become part of you like your skin.

Consistency.

That is what you must show her.

And make no mistake she is watching you.

So just keep steppin'

You have a good attitude about this and that is a good start.