How do I deal with now he's overseas?

[Piano]

I sent H an email. Longer that the one I posted above.
I am just so tired of this, so I wanted to put a few things out in the open.

I told him I am going to use a lawyer, what the CSA expects from him in terms of child support, how difficult things are going to be financially, and how upset and tired I am after the years events.

I know I am levelling a decent amount of blame on him in this email, but I don't care. What he did sucks beyond beleif and I am in desperate need of picking my self esteem up the floor, which includes sending a few truth darts his way...otherwise they seem to go internal.

I will be trying to work on getting better at this...

But I need to be ME. I need to find me and give free reign to MY voice.