Hi NNP, I just read your thread which caught my eye b/c of your title. It its exactly how I feel! And, I am also on the verge of my D becoming final, Dec. 3 to be exact.
I am changing my name too, back to my maiden name though! We don't have kids so that isn't an issue. I'm Irish too so I love that you're taking a whole new name based on your heritage!
Just want to lend my support, you sound strong and sounds like you are moving in an exciting new direction. And the setbacks that feel like you're back to day 1 - been there & it 's really discouraging. But remember you are progressing, you totally are. What helped me w it was talking to my IC.
