Fix me, fix my life, win back my wife

[ScaredinCanada]

Just went for a jog/walk all over downtown for about an hour. Just couldn't help being scared in general. I know my life, I want my life. I now realize that I need to do the things necessary in order to be able to have a happy and healthy M. The weekends are so much harder, since I'm home with my W most of the time.

My youngerst D's birthday party tomorrow, should be interesting. It's about her, no me or the W. Just have to keep reminding myself.

I wanted to ask some advice about 2 things. With Christmas coming up my W has told me on a number of occasions to "not bother getting anything for her" she knows it "too much trouble"...I know she's so full of $hlt it's coming out of her ears, but I also want the gifts to be small and thoughtful...not big and expensive as I don't want her to feel trapped. I'm working on some "thoughtful" type things, but it's not easy.

Also, like I said before our 8th year anniversary is in the middle of January. I wanted to try and plan something romantic and special (a couple nights away at a retreat of some kind) but my W said that we can just plan to go out for dinner or something. Should I go ahead and plan a weekend away and not tell her until shortly before the time or do I do what she's says and don't plan anything?

Thanks and have a good weekend.