Moving Forward

[gutwrenching]

Everyone is right, and oh I so appreciate all the thoughts....H4L, Flow, Newlife, Sandi, etc.

Yesterday was odd. We both tried to have a good holiday and for the most part it was. Obviously not ideal, but strangely not bad. There was some affection and I'm not even sure how I felt about that. I'm not sure how I felt about the whole day in general.

I'm becoming a little numb to all this. The big decision is when...obviously. Push now to move things along or wait till after Christmas. What is the right thing to do, what would God tell me to do if standing next to me, and what can I handle. Realistically, I know i can handle a lot, so I guess its more of what am I willing to handle.

Thanks again, everyone is giving me ton to think about.