But here is the deal.. I love this girl. Even without the sex I enjoy her company. Why do post divorce relationships always have to be so damn complicated? I HATE divorce!
Thing is, right before she met me she would simply go out to bars and have sex with random men. Most of the time it was in cars because most of her lovers were married. Yes she actually told me this. I have even met two of them and they are both married scum.
Then I come along. So here is this nice guy on the rebound who helps her in every way imaginable to try and make her life better and get her feet back on the ground financially. In her eyes, she struck gold.
We actually have had sex while her Son was in my house. But I just feel a lot better about it when he is not there. Im not what you call a MILF hunter but I was hoping for a long term FWB type relationship. Monogomy has it's benefits and I prefer that over wearing condoms and saying my prayers.
I understand that letting her go might be the heathiest thing to do but is it really? She will go right back to the bottom feeders and pond scum she was hanging around with before and that would not help her Son either. At least we give each other something, sex and companionship at a minimum. She was getting nothing from those other guys except random meaningless sex. But to be fair, that is all she wanted from them, or so she says.
But I guess you guys are right. Im just fooling myself. I just wanted somebody to love me and it felt good. The affection and sex was a big bonus as well.
God help me, I need to be stronger. Thanks for the reality check.
Me:48 W:55 M:22 T:23 Bomb:19Nov09 S:15Jan10 D:11Feb10 EA:Confirmed on 20Apr10 Fast track to her divorcing me