thank you for responding. writing in here and having people understand the pain i feel right now is so comforting. i try to be upbeat as my kiddos count on me. me and my daughter do our nails now every two weeks. i am gonna start going to barnes and noble and drink starbucks, and read my nook. i love to read so gonna make that one of my priorities. i got my nosed pierced too. i have always wanted to but he never liked that so i never did. i just hope he figures out whatever it is he needs to so that he can be happy again. that is what i want, his happinesss. sad thing is he thinks his life was making him unhappy but he isnt doing any better now either. thanks for listening. Jewells
