H's MLC - he is still lost but I found myself

[Mila]

Journaling....

We are having bit of winter weather here today, so my D's car is parked and I've been driving her everywhere today (in and out all day LOL) As I mentioned in my previous post the papers that H wanted so badly yesterday are still sitting here. I got an email, "If you are going to be driving anywhere today, any chance you could bring me the papers?"...well he knows very well that I'm D's taxi today....so why not use that so he doesn't have to go anywhere....I said no problem, I could do that...

As it happened I was going to take D to the gym, so with her in the car we dropped it off for him. He came down to pick it up, big sweet smile at me and started engaging us in a conversation...D was in the hurry, so she told him we have to run....he looked like he wanted to talk more.

Later he calls me and we talk about some business stuff, he also thanked me for sending him an email with an update from a vet about D's pet, managed to call me sweetie again and then somehow the conversation went to D's university applications. I said that we applied for one school this week and he said. "You did it without me? I wanted to be involved". It was just an online application....and he knows where she wants to go....but I guess he feels left out of her life.

Then he said "I wanted to be involved with buying her car too" I said "I know, but you weren't here. I told D that you wanted to do that with her, she said that you are out of town and wanted to get going with it". He replied....You could have told her no...and call me. I said "I'm sorry, but I did remind her and she chose to proceed, so please don't blame me for you being out of town". Then he said "But I missed buying her first car with her and I always thought that I will do that with her" I only said "I know". Then he said "It hurts" I replied "I know"...

I think that he was close to crying at that point and he abruptly ended the conversation by saying "See you Saturday"(we are meeting about SA).

The conversation was calm, soft, almost intimate...no anger or irritation from either of us....It seems to me that he is starting to realize how much he is missing from his D's life...