Starting on a different path

[Mystik]

So tonight... Tonight was so freaking hard. I had to drive to H's place to get DS.

H texted me around 6:15 that he had to give DS an inhaler treatment but DS was still complaining his chest hurt and was still wheezing, he needed to use his nebulizer. H never got one for his place. H said that now that he's down to a one-car family and Whore was out with the car he couldn't get DS to me. So I called my sister to see if she would get DS. At first she said yes, then called back that she didn't want to deal with H, she was too pi$$ed off at him and she couldn't do it. So that left me and my mom. So I did it. I went to H's. Had a panic attack doing it, but I did it. I was shaking so much my teeth were chattering and I felt hot and cold at the same time. We get there finally around quarter to eight and Whore's car was there. But I was too worked up to do anything about it.

Cried a lot tonight, feeling very drained. Only thing keeping me going is my faith that God will guide H back home to me.