thanks especially to jan who listened to me rant and vent and speak all sorts of obscenities on the phone this morning or i might be living on my own this afternoon
i was calm enough when hubby came home that i didn't take it out on him
pib, i read what cathy wrote this morning and it was so appropriate, but you know how things go when you see red eh???
so jan - just for your info - while hubby was home this afternoon, the washing machine tended to act a little funny, and he said to me "this washing machine just CAN'T be broke now because you will be waiting a couple of months for a new one"
do you think i saw red once again?
but i kept my kewl - i heard your words - no one gets divorced over a simple tax bill (insert any little stupid reason here)
thank you jan for being there for me this morning - i really don't know where i would be this afternoon
folks - i am ok
and pam, you got the worst of my attitude this morning, you got me before jan did, and i am afraid i kinda went off on you with my ranting...i am so sorry, i know you needed comfort and all i could think about was myself {{{{pam}}}}
my immortal i'm so tired of being here suppressed by all of my childish fears and if you have to leave i wish that you would just leave because your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone
these wounds won't seem to heal this pain is just too real there's just too much that time cannot erase
when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears and i've held your hand through all of these years but you still have all of me
you used to captivate me by your resonating light but now i'm bound by the life you left behind your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
these wounds won't seem to heal this pain is just too real there's just too much that time cannot erase
when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears and i've held your hand through all of these years but you still have all of me
i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone and though you're still with me i've been alone all along
Hi Kitty, Glad to see you're making such progress. I noticed you've been on Manisha's thread on surviving. You two can help each other. I posted recently to her thread my theories on curing the divorce problem, check it out. I see Underdog posts to you; I'm planning to meet her Friday night at the Denver DB get together (I go to a lot of them).
blair - thanks once again for the visit, i sure hope you all have a wonderful get together tonight! please hug everyone for me!!!
jan - what can i say but YA YA
holdingon - thanks for the well wishes
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POSITIVES
time for me to start posting positives again
1) family went to LOTR yesterday, dang was it good and it was FUN!!
2) family went on a wacky tacky light tour, was a yearly event until the OW got involved into our lives so this was a reclaim event...
3) got a couple of goodbye hugs today, oh well, i think hubby is suspecting all isn't well right now, well, that is ok, i am pretty much over the anger, cause karma had it's way with hubby this morning - more later! LOL
