I know that this is a question I wont get an answer to, but why weren't we good enough for H to fight for. Why was our family not good enough, why was his happiness so much more important than ours, me his wife and his two beautiful sons.
Because they have a childish view of life. In their lives, when you are not happy or don't think you are getting what you 'deserve', you go find it elsewhere. That's the easy way out, mostly because they don't value what they have.
And in reality, we were partners in that relationship with our own issues and reactions. That's just the way it is.
Getting stuck in the 'why' just keeps you well, stuck.
It no longer matters 'why'. It only matters that you heal and make your life worth living, for yourself and your children.
