Thanks and hugs to you all for your support. And i'm sorry... I wasn't speaking about anything specific my H has done recently. frown I'm sorry; I feel like I misled; it came out in such a blurt I didn't think to clarify. It's my relationships with people in general, and one person to a greater extent, (not my H) in particular. It just kind of came in a wave before I wrote it and I scrambled for this place to write it down.

Still I am always surprised at the 'layers' it takes to understand some of these concepts. My IC has been trying to get me to understand how I judge my feelings for so long... my whole life really. And I'd think... "oh yah I get it, BUT THIS hurt, or THIS anger... really IS wrong to feel because of ...blah blah blah." Well duh...If that's not self-judgement, what the heck is? I get it now.

And I think I'm getting why I did it. Because when you stop judging your feelings... when you stop giving yourself reasons why you SHOULDN'T feel them... you start feeling them. And crap some of them are really hurting; and there's a sh*tload of anger in there I don't want to deal with either. With this particular situation, I don't know HOW to get angry or HOW to hurt about it, without judging myself for it. So I guess another step to learn. Anyways. Back to work. Thank you for continuing to read and support me. It's so greatly appreciated.

I cannot complain for not receiving from others, that which I've never asked them for.