Huh. Just a journal to try and get this sunk into what seems to be my very, very thick skull.

I have the right to be angry or hurt when someone hurts me. I DON'T have to feel guilty for hurting, or for feeling angry, just because the person who hurt me seems to have a good 'reason' or 'justification' for doing so...

- It doesn't matter if their behavior is a result of reacting to their own pain and anger in their life.

- It doesn't matter if the pain that is causing them to hurt me 'seems' larger than the pain their behavior causes me.

- It doesn't matter if they imply that they're hurting me because I caused their pain in the first place.

I STILL have a right to FEEL my own HURT. I HAVE A RIGHT TO FEEL MY OWN ANGER. AND I don't have to disguise or hide my own pain so as not to make them feel guilty for hurting me!!! I DON'T have to hide my own pain so they don't feel guilty for hurting me. I don't have to hide my own pain so they won't feel guilty for hurting me.

God that hurts.

I cannot complain for not receiving from others, that which I've never asked them for.