When life hands you lemons add alcohol and stir!

[AliSuddenly]

Hey Mish, I'm so sorry that you lost your Mom and for Marc too, how is he doing?

I wasnt suprised when you said your Mom passed when you were out of the room, I have heard lots of people say that.. you were the closest person to her, maybe she felt able to let go when you were away from the pain of watching her. My H sat by his Dads bedside for 3 months, his brother came to take over one day and within a few minutes of leaving the room, his Dad passed away. H was naturally upset as you were, but perhaps also a little relieved as it would have been so much harder for him than it was on his brother, as it would have been for you rather than Gabe.

You need some weeks/months to get over your Mums death, so I would say, give yourself time to adjust, enjoy Marc and Gabes company and support and just live in the now a little longer? Its good that you let it out and cried on him for 10 minutes though and no, you really shouldnt apologsie to him so much, you have nothing to apologise for! Perhaps keep reminding yourself of that. He wont like you apologising either. My Mum told me to stop doing it, she said all it does is exacebate THEIR guilt, and you dont want to do that right.

Thinking of you and thanks for posting to me when all this has been going on.
Al xxx