Update: Yesterday she had an IC session. Usually she comes back from these angry with me. I get the feeling that the "fog" version of events that the IC gets has them both convinced that I am the worst person on the planet.
Oddly, this time she came back pretty friendly to me. I was wondering if she was coming around, or had filed and was getting ready to drop the bomb. Over the course of the evening, she was nice to me, paid me a compliment or two, sat close on the couch, and shared a little about her session.
This made me think she was coming around a little- at least right then. She still wouldn't come to bed. She's done this before, too. I get the feeling that some of this is based on what goes on with him. If he screws up, she gets warm on me again.
Long story short, I couldn't help but be elated for a few minutes, thinking there was hope....then almost immediately start to wonder about my own feelings. How much can I forgive, and how many times? Can I take a little more than I thought I could to protect the kids?
She's going to wan't to see more trust from me, but I need to see more transparency from her. This could get tricky.
