Kitti, So sorry you and your family have been sick. I hope you are all better for the Holidays. I had an emergency appendectomy saturday, so I've been off the BB too. I'm ok, but I'm movin' pretty slow. More about what's happening on my thread. Please know I'm here anytime you want to talk. I've been down the road your traveling, and it's not an easy one. The best part is that you've broken the silence that's held you captive for so long. It's a powerful step for you to take. I applaud your bravery. You and your children will all benefit from you breaking this cycle now. It stops here with you Kitty. Merry Christmas friend! Rachael