Found the niece/nephew's Halloween candy stash before bed... now I can't sleep. I've had enough coffee and sugar today for a week.
On the up side, it has given me time to think about my own question of what to do. I (obviously!) have been getting frustrated with not knowing what to do and not having anyone just tell me. I know exactly what I need to do. I need to continue NC. It is only a week away before I will likely run into him in the hospital. I will continue my 'as if' attitude. 'Hi, friendly neighbor'. Me being friendly and nonchalant is the only way I am going to get him to consider granting my last request...it is also the way I hooked him in the beginning (remembering LR's words...).
I feel better having a 'plan'. The holidays suck for me and I can't imagine they are much better for him.
LR- seriously? 4 weeks in feb/march? This is why I MUST find a job outside of this country!!!
(Formerly blgp) Me-35 H-33 Married 4 yrs Together 9 yrs "Bomb" 8/1/10 Separated 8/6/10 D filed 10/21/10, on hold til 1/11
"If you want to hear God laugh, tell Him about your life plans."
