One of my big fears is that I will never get over this if it doesn't work out and that I will hang on much longer than I should. I had two other serious relationships prior to meeting H. And in both of these relationships, I hung on much too long. It took me years to get over both. But I was younger then. Had a bit more time. I'm scared of being without him. And that says a lot about where I am functionally. He was going to be my forever man. Divorce is not in my value system - but since I am his third wife, I should have assumed it was in his.
I look up to you and hope to gather the strength that you have - and I hope to be able to stay or depart, whatever the case may be, lovingly.
I am sorry you feel you hung on much too long, although I do understand the feeling.
You will have the strength, you already have it, you just don't know it yet.
"Acceptance doesn't mean resignation. It means understanding that something is what it is and there's got to be a way through it."--Michael J. Fox
