I feel like i am just getting time to fix myself and get my life back together so i will be ok when it all ends and so I am a better person on my weekends with the kids.
Still reading through the rest of your thread. Just wanted to chime in about this quote above.
Know right now that what you described above may well be the best ending that comes your way. Think about that and consider it, because doing so will get you thinking in the right direction.
Accomplishing what you wrote above is a pretty noble goal in my opinion. And if your life has truly been an ugly one, the life descirbed above is a pretty damned good one.
Blessings,
Bill
"Don't tell me the sky is the limit when there are footprints on the moon."
