He texted me back wanting to know how I knew he was in the car, wanting to know if he had been with her, why would he call me, telling me I had him shaken up and ended it by saying he didn't want to talk about it "anymore...EVER". He also made sure to be ugly and add that he was quite busy at the moment cleaning spit off of his family member's face (in the hospital) and then made sure to give me a play by play of the rest of his day, just to rub it in. So he never addressed why he lied to me - but instead puts it all back on me.
I am in a downward spiral. I don't think I'm very good at this DB stuff as I continue to fail and continue to push him further and further away. I think it's referred to as back-peddling from my hard-earned progress in the book. I feel depressed. Hopeless. I want to just say "F-acting upbeat and bubbly". I'm just so tired. I commune with God daily - prayers many times over. I sense that I need to continue trying to show him unconditional love - showing him that our marriage means something to me and that I'm not going to give up. When I stray from this, things go downhill.
M9+ T 11+ Me42 H44 2 kids under 5 IlYBNILWY -3/10 A discovered late 8/10 H moved out early 9/10 - back two weeks later "Taking a Break" - H moves out 1/2/10