I just keep screwing up. I couldn't talk myself down from trying to figure out if he went to see his ex today. I called his work phone - not there. Figured he might have left for the hospital. Called his cell phone - he answered (I had blocked the number so he couldn't see who was calling) and I heard all of the typical road background noise I always hear. I hung up. Gauged how long it would take him to arrive at his supposed destination and called again. This time I did not block the number. He lied and told me he was just on his way to the hospital and that he had left work 10 minutes ago - not possible since the previous call I made proved he was already in the car and was 40 minutes before the second call. I asked him why I couldn't hear any road noise - he said "I'm in the car" very adamantly. I asked if he saw her today and he said "no" and was pissed off. I just hung up. I'm so mad at myself for even asking - for even looking into it. WHY can't I stop this behavior?!
M9+ T 11+ Me42 H44 2 kids under 5 IlYBNILWY -3/10 A discovered late 8/10 H moved out early 9/10 - back two weeks later "Taking a Break" - H moves out 1/2/10
