You don't need it sweetie. You are making your own life, living by your own choices, walking forward with your head held high.
That doesn't take luck.
It has taken a lot of work on your part, and will take tons more. But you know this.
The anger? We don't see it because they hide it and honestly, don't even acknowledge it to themselves. They do a very good job of looking happy. Remembering they are in crisis can be very hard to do. As you know, I've been dealing with the same kinds of issues. Go figure
I pray that my H “wakes up”, but not for me, not even for the kids. I hope it happens some day for HIM. Because I know the peace that I feel in my heart now that I have clarity of self. I’m a work in progress, don’t get me wrong, but now that I know how good this feels, I want it for everyone. Including my H. Including your W.
You have “clarity of self” (huge amounts of it, and you continue to work towards more) ... and so today I pray you get at least some of the “clarity of situation” you seek. I know how much stress this causes you. Today I pray you get some peace.
And ... because no one knows how these things will go, I also pray you find continued strength to deal with any lack of peace or clarity. That you continue to find the strength to be the man and father that you have become.
I am honored to know you. For real.
(((great big squeezie hugs E)))
You got this.
~ T
Holding onto anger to punish someone else, is like lighting yourself on fire to get smoke in their eyes ~ 25yearsmlc
