Thank you for the support. I have written her a letter about what is going on inside me and what I have learned about myself. MC thought if it was just about me, it would not come across persuing. I have decided not to give it to her and trust the DBing. It is hard though. I want to talk to my best friend,my wife. I guess maybe I have doubts about her being a waw. Everything says she is, but I still have small doubts. She is a really special person. What I mean is, she is not like most. What I am getting at is what if she is an exception to the rule? Or not a waw? She is not the type to come to me to talk. She is not the type to go to anyone and talk. Nobody knows about our situation. She has said her private life is nobody else's business. I know this is a lot of the reason we are in this situation now. She is very hard to communicate with. Actually, she is easy to communicate with but she will not initiate it. This really scares me because she may want to talk but wont. I understand the waw needs tons of patience from me. But what if she is waiting or needing a small push. I know this goes against everything but is it a possibility, understanding my wife, she would not come to talk to anyone very easily about any thing personal. Can I tell her if she ever wants to talk about anything i am listening? Can I ask her if she would like to know what I have discovered about myself? Can I thank her for getting my attention through such a courageous act. Thank her for not tolerating my unloving behavior any longer and sending me on a course of learning to be a better husband and father.
What I am really asking is, if she needs a little push, how ever so slightly could i do this?
H-40 W-38 Together-20 Married-12 boy-7 girl-3 bomb-9/17/10 No papers live together No affair
