Thanks 25, that was great. Don't mind the rambling at all btw, it was all good stuff!
I am gratefull for my beautifull, funny, sweet baby girl. I know I only get to have her because of my time with my H, and I was blessed to have such a crazy little firecracker.
I am not giving up on love, but I am not going to consider myself a failure if I don't find someone I want to be with. I am willing to take the time and do the work to be in a healthy R, not simply repeat old patterns again.
And yes, those patterns ARE there. I grew a lot when I left my first M, but I jumped into a new R too fast. I had started, but not finished my "work."
Compared to my previous R's my H was definately a trade up for me, despite all his flaws. I can't make him be a better person, that is his job. I can make myself a better person, and I will.
I am going to be a better me. I am going to be a better mom. Maybe someday I will be a better partner too. For now I am more concerned about the first two tasks though.
