I have never read your thread but sounds like you are in a good place.
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For me, I need to create a safe space she cannot enter in for quite awhile, including ZERO contact until I have been able to work through things
I know the feeling dude - I'm feel very similar. Just remember that everything is a choice and maybe in the future you will choose differently. Either way, continue to live your life the way YOU want to live it.
God Bless, Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans