Yep, stuff got deleted. Was trying to reach others elsewhere and not sure how to do it...
Doing OK. I am in FL on vacation for the week with family. A first in a very long time. H's family always took precedence as did my work schedule but they have been more flexible with me knowing what is going on...
Haven't heard from the squirrel in weeks now. Know of his existence in the building when someone will make a comment that they were just talking to him etc.
Last time I was here in FL (April), he was with me. I keep thinking about all of the negative comments he was making, looking for reasons to leave our M (in retrospect). They were odd comments, picking at nearly anything. I remember thinking how depressed he must have been at the time. Now I have more clarity, I think, as to why he was saying those things. He kept making excuses to leave and trying to get me to hate him.
There is absolutely no communication at this time. I feel my chances of getting him to do the weekend counseling EVER at this point are dismal to none. I am afraid the tension is so high that his 'not yet' reply now means never. I wish I knew what to do to try to diffuse the tension without looking like I am pursuing him. He will be working in the clinic next week when I am back. It's not a guarantee I will run into him but it is likely. He still is not parking in the same area anymore.
The DBing was working to a degree in Sept, some of Oct but now it has taken a major backslide.
(Formerly blgp) Me-35 H-33 Married 4 yrs Together 9 yrs "Bomb" 8/1/10 Separated 8/6/10 D filed 10/21/10, on hold til 1/11
"If you want to hear God laugh, tell Him about your life plans."
