I had a pretty good weekend, despite having a bit of a breakdown yesterday when trying to schedule college visits with D17. Things are not how they SHOULD be for her, and I wish I could change them - but I can't, so will forgive myself for the breakdown and do my best to do the best I can for her.

Things are starting to click in my head. I think I'm finally getting to a better place, despite the breakdowns and despite the fact that I still miss my H.

I'm doing my best to look forward to the holidays and creating new memories with my kids! This time of year is VERY difficult. I know I'm in a better place (in my head) than I have been for the last 3 years - so hope to keep rolling and forging ahead!!

"Do not look back in anger or forward in fear, but around in awareness." - James Thurber