MLC or just an EA?

[angel61]

Haven't posted for a while but I do have some new developments. Just to let everyone know, I have been DB'ing my ass off but of course would backslide evry now and then, my most major fault not being able to keep from saying or writing ILY and also texting and calling. But I have been doing GAL a lot and have not been crying or being sad arund him, and also have refrained from attacking or defending or too much relationship talks.

So we had a convo a few days back. This is in regard to me havng problems with my work - my boss told me to get my act togteher, as I am slacking, and though I am not really depressed about it, I have been thinking on what to do for damage control. I told my H and thankfully, he is very concerned.

My H thinks though that I am on the path to self destruction, and told me he could not take it if I do fall apart. He finally admitted to me how guilty he is of everything and feels he will go into depression if I do fall apart, and what will happen to our family and to D11? I pointed out to him that I am NOT falling apart, but I am doing my best to do recover, and that I will harness all my resources to do so, even if it meant asking help from him. He agreed to help me, as we work in the same line, by reviewing my work, etc. At the same time, I said look, I did not create this problem, but see how much I have progressed? He agreed at that point.

He then started analyzing the situation, saying that if we both could pull ourselves up, become better persons, the probability of healing our relationship would be higher. He also assured me that me not needing him did not mean to say he would leave.

So I went on a 2 day business trip. Whe I got back, I was happy, bubbly with the good reslts of my trip. He then suddenly asks me how I have been coping, and said he himself was not coping well. I was surprised, but not wanting to share DB, just simply said prayer, aouls searching and sometimes just plain escaping everything.....

I view this as improvements.....anyone out there validate me? tell me if what I am thinking is OK? What should I do next?

Angel